Why Is This Happening??

Every once in awhile I would feel like my confidence level is becoming less and less everyday.. And I just don't know how to get it up again.. Sometimes when I'm with my friends I can pretend to be.. Because they already know me.. But what happens if I have to meet new people?? All alone?? I don't know how to do it.. Mama is getting me to act.. How will I act without confidence?? I'll be thinking about a lot of things.. Like, I'm too fat or I'm too ugly.. I'm also afraid of what they would think of me.. Like, who the hell is she or doesn't she look at herself in the mirror or the nerve of her trying to act..

Because the truth is.. I am fat and ugly.. And when I say that I'm fat and ugly to my friends, they would say: no you're not..

They have to say that because they are my friends.. If they aren't I know they would talk behind my back.. I just know it..

All I know is right now, I have to find a way to get my confidence back..