Did you see the picture.. No? Well, look at it.. It's a Humpback Whale.. It's scientific name is Megaptera novaeangliae.. What's so special about it?? Well, I'm glad you asked.. It's one of the extinct animals in the world... Yup.. So, I guess I would be talking about the endangered animals in this world...
So far there are about 833 endangered mammals.. 744 endangered birds.. 276 endangered reptiles.. 4356 endangered plants.. 632 fishes.. 258 endangered insects.. 472 endangered snails.. 90 endangered clams.. 18 endangered arachnids.. 215 endangered crustaceans.. 7 endangered worms and 45 endangered corals, jellyfish and sea anemones..Some of those extinct animals and plants are from Malaysia.. Yes, our country..
I'm not just gonna write about the animals and plants.. There are also the people of the world that we have to think about.. There are about 16 countries that are still at war and 7 countries that are starving..
Why do we live in such ignorance when there are others out there who are suffering.. Humans, animals and plants are striving for their lives.. They are worried about if they are gonna make it another day.. Everyday is like a battle for them.. While we worry about petty things like not going out or we don't get what we want..
Right now... I am thankful.. I'm an idiot for being worried with my problems.. It's nothing compare to them.. But they are living in pain.. I wanna help them.. I don't how, I don't know when.. but I know something starting right now, I'm gonna change.. So that this could all change.. I'm gonna do it even if I have to do it alone.. Because I can't bare living in this selfish world.. I want a caring world.. Don't you??
I know that barely anyone reads my blog.. but in case some of you are reading it, I wanna say thank you.. And to all my friends, especially the ones that I know the longest, I still care about you.. Even though I act as if I'm arrogant, but I'm not.. I'm afraid of what you would think of me.. Afraid that you would just wish I would leave you the hell alone.. Because I don't know what's going on with your life.. And seriously, it pains me to think that we were friends and we're like nothing.. We barely talk because we're in different classes.. We barely meet because we have different friends.. And all I wanna do is turn back time when we were still friends.. Thinking about doing bad things to the school.. I guess my sister was right.. Everyone does change.. Because everyone wants to find who they are.. I haven't find myself yet because I'm still holding on to the past.. Because the past seems more calming.. And it pains me to go and hear you say that I've become arrogant.. Maybe it's my own damn fault.. All I have to say to you is that everyone changes.. There is no exception for you and me.. But if you ever need a shoulder to cry on.. I'm right here..
We all get jealous sometimes.. Even to our best friend.. Why?? Because we never appreciate what we have.. We always want what someone else have.. For instance, some people would go all jealous when they open up a magazine and see a really skinny model/actress.. And they look at them self in mirror and think why can't I be like that?? And some would go jealous because some people have the guts to realize their dreams..
I'll admit.. I was talking (writing) about me.. But at times I feel really stupid for even having that feeling.. It's not supposed to be there because I should have worked my ass off to want any of those things to come true... And sometimes I get a little selfish to think that people should be jealous of me.. But the truth is, there is nothing to be jealous about.. I don't have a perfect figure, I don't have perfect grades, I don't have perfect skin, I don't have a boyfriend and I don't have a life.. Ok, so the boyfriend part was not that important but you get my point.. People have no reason to be jealous of me.. And right now I'm mad at myself that I can't find myself.. Who I really am.. I know who I am.. But I'm afraid of letting her out.. People seem to like me as the boring girl that I am.. And I like it too.. But there is someone inside of me wanting to go out.. I'm not sure how..
It's like, jealousy is part of who I am.. I get jealous by everyone around me.. Jealous that their too smart, jealous that their too skinny, jealous that their too beautiful, jealous that their too rich, jealous that their living my dream, jealous that they have a life..
Well all of that is going to change.. Because I'm going to change.. It might take awhile, and I might give up.. But change is the only way for getting the green eyed monster in me out...
I'm not sure if I consider today as a bad day.. so I guess it's an ok day.. I woke up at 12.05.. It's not surprising since I slept late.. Yesterday after breaking the fast, I suddenly have the urge to go and watch a movie.. We surf the net to see what movie was now showing.. Then I found out that Final Destination 4 was out.. Then we asked mama if we could go.. mama said: can.. We changed our clothes and when I was getting out of my room, my 10 year old cousin said that her mom was like between the fence.. I hesitated to go.. And after a few minutes debating with myself, I decided we should go.. When we got there I was nervous cause I will be seeing an 18 rated movie.. I've never broken the rating rule before.. But we got in anyways.. And it was great.. HAHA.. I know I sound childish.. I'm sure many people have entered an 18 rated movie.. But seriously, that was my first..
I'm not sure what's going to happen to me.. It looks like I have no life at all.. I don't want to be a shy girl for the rest of my life.. It's like whatever I want in life, I can't have because of who I am.. But inside, I know I'm not that kind of person.. Sure I can get bored at times, and people will get bored of me.. But, I can't go on my life like I have everything when I don't..
I wanna live the few years of my teenage years like I'm supposed to.. I know I can't change myself in a second.. It takes time.. But, I'm getting there.. And sure, I'll get jealous at times when I read my friends blogs about some interesting part of their lives.. But I have mine too.. I may not talk to some of the people that I used to be so close with, but they are always in my heart and I just can't forget my friends that easily.. Sometimes I feel that they don't think of me as their friend, but will always think they are my friends..
I can't believe I'm actually writing my own blog.. I told myself that I should not try blogging because no one will read it.. I'm not the popular kind.. Or even the person who socialize a lot.. But I wanna change somehow.. So, this blog is for my future I guess.. I wanna write my thoughts, my happy moments, etc.. It doesn't really matter if no one reads this.. I'm just happy to share everything.. And so what if my blog is not that interesting like some people, I will get jealous, but this is my blog and my life..
