Babbling..

I'm not sure if I consider today as a bad day.. so I guess it's an ok day.. I woke up at 12.05.. It's not surprising since I slept late.. Yesterday after breaking the fast, I suddenly have the urge to go and watch a movie.. We surf the net to see what movie was now showing.. Then I found out that Final Destination 4 was out.. Then we asked mama if we could go.. mama said: can.. We changed our clothes and when I was getting out of my room, my 10 year old cousin said that her mom was like between the fence.. I hesitated to go.. And after a few minutes debating with myself, I decided we should go.. When we got there I was nervous cause I will be seeing an 18 rated movie.. I've never broken the rating rule before.. But we got in anyways.. And it was great.. HAHA.. I know I sound childish.. I'm sure many people have entered an 18 rated movie.. But seriously, that was my first..

I'm not sure what's going to happen to me.. It looks like I have no life at all.. I don't want to be a shy girl for the rest of my life.. It's like whatever I want in life, I can't have because of who I am.. But inside, I know I'm not that kind of person.. Sure I can get bored at times, and people will get bored of me.. But, I can't go on my life like I have everything when I don't..

I wanna live the few years of my teenage years like I'm supposed to.. I know I can't change myself in a second.. It takes time.. But, I'm getting there.. And sure, I'll get jealous at times when I read my friends blogs about some interesting part of their lives.. But I have mine too.. I may not talk to some of the people that I used to be so close with, but they are always in my heart and I just can't forget my friends that easily.. Sometimes I feel that they don't think of me as their friend, but will always think they are my friends..